Everything reminds me of you, febreeze, carrot juice, ziplock bags, Shokubutsu..
I miss the times you will text me good night… …
I miss the chemistry we shared.
Last night while on the way to dbl O, I had to walk pass chijmes, while at the intersection in front of chijmes waiting to cross the road, from my peripheral view i saw this very interesting low arch door, i went towards it and that was a plaque indented to it’s wall, it said ” Gate of Hope” and then further description which i can’t remember, something like sisters of the church of the holy infant Jesus something like that.
I stood in front of the door, i lay my head down, and I made a wish, oblivious to the people staring at me, but I heard this child said ” mummy, he’s praying to the door” hahahaha, jokes aside, I really made a wish in front of the door of hope, i think i missed 2 green lights while standing there.
I think my wish sorta came true, because 3 hours later I got assurance from someone special, someone special said “of course we are”
But im not really sure now.. the next day i woke up, things seem to go back to square one, I wanna go back to the door, i wanna pin my wish on the door.
you mean to tell me all the memories we had meant nothing to you? so this is where it all ends.
I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years, or just not exist, or just not be aware that you do exist, or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning. I don’t know what’s going on between us now, i’m very confused, i know you have your problems too, but that’s why i’m not gonna bother you..
Still waiting since the start of 26 Dec. damn you had me drowning in sorrows, but i know you’re not the kind to hurt. You’re a good person, i’m nothing near you. You have the most beautiful smile and the cutest laughter. You sound like a retarded woody wood pecker when you laugh, you go like ‘herherher. herheher. herherher.’ hahahaha you’re so cute :) I don’t think i know much about your life and your past but i already feel I’ve known you for years. Last night after my friends left, I lay awake all night and thought of all the wonderful times we spent for those were one of the best moments of my life. Sometimes when you cross my mind and i start to miss you, i tell myself that’s how far it goes and i hope you’re doing fine.
Last Christmas :), let’s go on a road trip again!
Things going a lil’ rough at A.I and home, you prolly won’t read this, but thank you for the guidance at A.I, i wish you nothing but the best at home :)
We come from similar backgrounds, but we’re still the strongest people around ! :D
26/12/2011, Farhan, Hilda and porn films with my favorite Stella heh.